Changes

I can’t believe it’s already that time of year again.  The temperature has suddenly dropped this week and I can feel that winter chill starting to roll in.  It feels refreshing yet so strange to wake up in the morning and actually turn the heater on in my car.  This past summer has been the hottest I can remember.  And I think the best summer of my life.  But change is inevitable.  Leaves are starting to slowly turn to their beautiful hues of gold, brown and maroon.  I’m ready to take a trip to the mountains and I will probably do that after my lay off.    For some odd reason, this time of year always brings about so many changes for me.  It always peaks around December or January and then things have a tendency to become somewhat normal again.  My papa is in the hospital with serious problems, I’ve met a new guy whom treats me like royalty and I’ve fallen head over heels in love with, my job is going away, there’s so many birthdays in October (including my own), my little brother AND my best friend are engaged and I’m getting used to living on my own.  I wonder what else will happen in this magical time of year?  So this is my last Tuesday being 26.  Time is an odd thing.  I have a love hate relationship with this fellow called time.  Every year I learn more about myself, the world, make new friends, experience new things … and that’s wonderful.  But I miss the past a lot too.  So many memories I’d like to revisit.  Eventually my time machine will be up and running and I will be back.  For now, I have lots to look forward to.  I’m so excited/horrified about jumping into a new career and I’ve found a wonderful man to keep me company on this crazy ride.

Au revoir last Tuesday of being 26.  I wouldn’t have changed a thing about you!!!  You are perfect and were meant to be just as you were.  No regrets.  Just smiles and tears of happiness.   

I hope he will soon.  He’s listened before but this time it doesn’t seem to be working.  Maybe there’s more to this than I will ever understand.  I’m pretty sure there is.  But I still can’t help but question it.  I don’t talk to you very often but please listen.  I never ask you for much.

He loved hiding easter eggs in the hardest to find spots, wore socks in the creek so no one would see his feet, let me snoop through his closet, always told me she has freckles on her; but she’s cute, let me scruff up that white hair and the Elcamino’s were pimp.  Member’s Only jackets were his thing as well as Marlboro Lights.  I love you.  Snap out out of it,  I can’t handle this right now …  you’re breaking my heart.

Extended

The rain that fell down your face as you learned …
The sun that shined on your cheeks as your heart opened and …
The clouds that blotted your mind as you slowly …
The snow that touched your hair while you stared at …
The darkness and mystery that shrouded you made me wonder …

The life that glowed from your heart, surpassed everything else as
I mourned, laughed, grew, hated, admired
Who are you?  Do you exist and why all of this?

No One Knows

I took a few lines from some songs that I really like and made this …

Have I got a little story for you…

So unpack your bags this instant

And twisted thoughts that spin round my head

That I almost believe that they’re real

There are many things that I would like to say to you but I don’t know how

But don’t look back in anger

And I hope to God I figure out what’s wrong

But ordinary’s just not good

And I know that home is where you want me

As I ran to your heart to be near

It’s hot outside; let me go swimming in your eyes

You were bigger and brighter and whiter than snow

It’s the two wild siders grab your holsters and your guns

Kicking and screaming

You finally found all your courage to let it all go

But no one knows

ADD is in full effect tonight!  Look!  There’s a squirrel.  I love that song.  Wanna go to the park?  How about the pool?  Jog?  Where’s that bug going?  And WHY is he going there?  haha!

Please Don’t Retire

Last night, a legend, an icon – Chipper Jones tore his ACL while fielding a ground ball in Houston. This is the most depressing news I’ve had in a long while. I feel like I’ve been watching him forever! He debuted as the youngest player in the MLB with the Braves in 93 and has been my all time favorite since. He will not be playing the remainder of this season and may not ever play again (as he was considering retiring at the beginning of the season this year.) I really hoped he could go out with a bang and now that he’s injured toward the end of his career, it makes my insides sting. No matter how it ends though, he will go down in Braves history and I will never forget him. A Braves game will not be the same without that man. So I tip my hat to you Chipper, you played a damn good game.  And please do not retire until I get one last chance to see you play!

I took this a few years ago…

Working for a Living

What to do when I grow up?  That is the question that seems to be rolling through my mind every day now.  Like a song wedged in your head, it won’t go away.  I love photography and I know I could be very happy doing that for a living but I can’t help but wonder if it will allow me to do everything I want to do in life.  I’ve heard of so many photographers stuck in Olan Mills or even worse, shooting for grade school kids.  While that’s not a bad gig and I’m not downing anyone who does that now, it’s just not for me.  I would love to work for National Geographic and travel the world shooting exotic animals and locations.  Ahh, to dream. 

Then there’s the realistic approach.  I have my Real Estate license but I don’t think that’s my cup of tea either.  I’m not a very good bullshit artist and I keep to myself a lot.  I could go back to school (which I will once I figure out what I want to go for) and just get your typical business degree.  That’s probably what I will end up doing.  But the thought of working for corporate America for the rest of my life scares the hell outta me.  It’s a nice safe job with benefits and the whole nine but my soul is searching for something much more than that. 

And lastly, this one has potential too (aside from my dream job at National Geographic) …  I could do all sorts of different types of jobs.  From one end of the spectrum to the next and always have a backup plan.  And once I’m done sampling all there is for me to do, write a book about it.  Share with the world my experiences, document it for my heirs and let my knowledge fly to other minds.  I firmly believe that experiencing different things in life will mold us into stunning creatures and allow our minds to thrive to their potential. 

So what am I going to do when I grow up?  I have absolutely no clue at this point!  But so far, I’ve been very lucky, had a blast doing each and every little odds and ends job I’ve had and I can’t wait to see where my crazy ass will land next.

The Birth of a Star

 

via SPACE PHOTOS THIS WEEK: Star Birth, Active Sun, More.

I thought these were stunning photos.  The Universe will never cease to amaze me.  How far does it go and what’s all out there?  Our minds will never be able to fully understand it …  but we can easily revel in it’s beauty and mystery.

Watch what you stick in there

Drum roll please …   Introducing the new rape condom!  The days of the rape whistle and wasp spray are numbered ladies.  Rest assured that if the creep that slipped you a roofy at the bar tries anything after he drags you back to his lair, his member is gonna be pretty sore for awhile. 

Tah dah!

The Unity Tour

So I got to see the Offspring and 311 in concert this weekend and it was so much fun!!  They played at Lakewood and the place was packed.  After a couple of beers in the parking lot we headed in and scoped the place out.  Offspring had already gone on and it was so awesome to hear them live!  Dexter played an acoustic version of “Gone Away” on the piano which I loved!  It’s always interesting to see a rock band incorporate a piano into one of their songs.  And this particular song has very special meaning to me.  I busted my arse coming down the grassy knoll and slid a good 5 feet.  I played it off like a pro though, slid in right behind a group of guys, gave one of them a hug and then jumped back up.  311 was amazing!  I think probably 90% of the crowd was there to see them play and they gave them what they came to see.  It’s one of those concerts you can’t help but to dance at and I danced until my back was sore!  We got a few pictures and so I might post some at a later date.  Gotta get back to work, I have the Monday morning blues now.  Living for the weekends …  See ya!

This I Pray

A love that cannot always be
This I do not pray
For his heart is full of so much hope
Her eyes so much laughter
To feel to the stab of love
Oh, it will come away
But a love that cannot always be
This I will not pray

Before you find that one true love
You’ll endure almost more than you can bear
And I will not ask for that to go away
For God will place you
The love that will always be
For us, this I pray